Unrequited love

I remembered how you hold me;
In the midst of lightning and thunder.
You told me to be brave;
Brave enough to face the world.
Now I am so alone to face it.

I remembered how we used to play;
In the soft grass and the muds.
You taught me to love;
Love so divine as in the Book.
Now I am so left alone.

I remembered how you fight for me;
In the rude world of sweats.
You gave your blood for me;
The blood which I  can never repay.
Now I am left with only words.

I remembered how you used to love me;
In every possible way.
You gave me love and hope;
A hope that I will be with you.
Now all I can do is love you.

I remembered the songs we used to sing;
In the depth of our heart.
You gave me new life with your song;
A song which will be buried with me.
Now all I can sing is a lonely song.

Though we may be a world apart;
There's hope when the trumpets thundered
That I will be with you.
This is my song. This is my unrequited love.

[Dedicated to my sister, Rebec Lalzarkim, who is watching over me from above]

New Delhi
28.08.2013
02:23 am

Let the vibes be positive

  “That was the thing about the world: it wasn't that things 

were harder than you thought they were going to be, it was 

that they were hard in ways that you didn't expect.” 

― Lev Grossman, The Magician King  

After wrapping up a day's work, I was heading home in one of those low floor DTC Bus. It was drizzling a bit. Who cares. After all, I was heading home. As usual, headphones plugged to my ears, listening to collections of 'Rainbow', I was tapping my foot to the tune of the songs, which was occasionally interrupted  by the sudden jerk of the bus. So lost in the world of Rock music, I lost track of time. My bums started showing the signs that I have been parking them in those soft-looking hard seat rather long than as usual. Checking time, I just realized that I have been sitting on the bus for almost two and half hours. Strange! I gazed through the window and there - endless lines of all sorts of automobiles. Damn! It used to take me just thirty minutes on an average day. I just knew that it was one of those 'famous' water-logging on rainy days. I moved my sleeping bums out of the bus and then make a bee-line for home. I lose two precious hours - the very precious hours in a day which I used to spend with my ever playful and loving boy. When I reached home, my boy was already feeling sleepy and in no more mood to play with me with his new skills of 'hand shake', 'high five', 'hello hello'.

It just dawn on me that in order to appreciate the true value of time, I was tested. On other days, I just took it for granted that I will leave office at 5:30 pm and reached home around 6:00 pm. This becomes a routine and makes me more of an automaton. Had there been no negative factors, how are we supposed to appreciate the positive factors. Traffic jam taught just me one good lesson which has been eluding me until now: how to appreciate things and factors surrounding and happening to us -  the positives  and the negatives. 

It's worthwhile, and possible, to learn to think more positively. Life is full of the slings and arrows that can push us to have a negative focus on things. The secret in dealing with these challenges, of which there are many, such as illness, grief, loss, pain, tragedy, is to really cherish the positive aspects of life. The dichotomy between positive and negative will always be. I truly believe that it is essential to realize that negative situations, feelings, emotions,  and experiences are sometimes the most motivational factors and opportunities life can offer you to really jump start a positive life. If you think about anyone you admire, respect, or look up to in your life, you'll find one common denominator; they used whatever negative situation they had and turned it into an opportunity to gain something, share something, or do something that enhanced their life and maybe even the lives of others. 

[This goes out to all who have been depressed, at least once, in their life. Let the vibes be positive. Life rocks!]

New Delhi.
15.08.2013